26-06-2011

A very bad day to me..

Wake up at 7 something..

Then turning around at my bed until 9 something wake up..,

Then called hubby.,

I want to tell him that i have fever.,

But he ask me dont disturb him,

He want sleep..

I was fine..

You go have your sleep la..

Then my fever getting high on that time..,

But ,

I did not care about it..,

Sleep until 11 something ,

wake up awhile,

Cause phone keep on ring because of the facebook things..,

And digi..

Then try to sleep back.,

My head de pain started..

I did not take medicine.,

Cause..

If i take medicine will cause me very suffer on that time.

Sleep until 3 something only wake up..

Cause suddenly my kai ma called me.,

Then she put down the phone on the time..,

Wake up le,

My head is very heavy..,

Then Lay at living room and watch movie..

Then only release abit..

Then eat my breakfast, lunch and dinner together in a same time.,

After the eating..

Then go bath.,

While bathing.,

I feel like faint...

Lucky did not..,

But.

I have vomit blood on the time.,

Out from bathroom..,

Then not feeling well at all the time..

This is my badly sunday..!

I feel ♥

我觉得我和你已经不是最后一次甜蜜不再,

由于...

我们已经不是随时联系了..,

也许你忙你的事..!

我还需要努力学习为来我的考试...!

嘉油坝!!

我能做到这一点!!!

T-shirt ♥

T-shirt of 5 Penaga.. ♥

The last years for us ♥

My class picture ♥

Changed..!

What he want i change..

I have did to him.,

But i did not know he want do it for me a not..

If he really can't do it,

I also can be fine..,

At least i already did it..,

What you do,

I trusted.,

I believed.,

So..

I did not mind it also..

I think i will give 10 -20 people about it only..

Others..,

Please get lose from my life..,!

I did not need you all..><

22-06-2011

Monday have went to see doctor about my pain that on my head..

The doctor told me that no need to take x-ray first..

Cause i still young..

Then i was like LOL.!

See a doctor to talk 2 to 3 words cost RM50..

That is so expensive..

On the way,

I back house..

My dad keep on say so many things..

Make me so angry on it..

Backed house..,

Eat medicine then take a good result..

On tuesday..,

My BM teacher have get so angry to our class..

Cause them did not listen what she teach..,

And keep on make noise...

Make her very pek cek..

Then i have went to told teacher about this problem..

Cause them noise, my head will start pain seriously..

After the day.,

I so hate some of them in my class..

Did not respect people..,

Then want people to respect you guys..,!

On wednesday.,

The day is so boring..

The class have make so many noise again..

I keep on screaming all the time,

I really hate them seriously..

Almost half of them,

I very angry with them and make me dislike them..

I totally wont be respect you all anymore..!

If you think the tuition centre can help you more,

You should stay at there enough..

Dont waste your time to coming to school..

Make the student want study also cant study at all..!

How you all do first., Then what i will do after that..

20-06-2011

My ugly face ><

Feel so boring today..

Cause my lao po did not go to school..

She too lazy le...

Today class damn little people..

Then the stupid teacher go complain to our class teacher..

Hate her so much..

Lucky the crazy lady did not scold us..,

And we can go back house early..

Backed house,

Help mother do this and that..

It is very boring..

About 3 something want take a nap..

But cant..

Hubby called me and chat with me,

But i am in a blur mood..

After he closed his call..

Then lao po called me again..

Haiz..

Make me did not sleep well..

Then now..,

My head very pain..

Later going to see doctor..

Missing hubby ♥

19-06-2011 ♥

Today is me and hubby de big day ♥

We already together for 4 months le...!

Today..

I have went to find him..

By KTM again..

The way i kissed you ♥

The Kiss That You Give Me ♥

Happy 4 Months Anniversary...! ♥

Other than that...

Today also is FATHER'S DAY..! ♥

My family did not celebrate at all...

Just a normal day for us..

We celebrate it is on my dad and mum de marry anniversary..

It is on oktober...!

Is a good day for me...! ♥

I love hubby forever...! ♥

Miss hubby so much....! ♥

Muackssss.....! ♥

We have been together back..!

Lastly..,

We have together back..

Sorry.,

Make you so upset..

And drop your tear..

Sorry so much..

I really thanks you..

Give me one more chance..

I hope you will go for operation..

Anyway..

Take care...

Pain T.T

Today..

The back born very pain..

I dont know why..

Suddenly see so many back blue at there...

So scary..

Dont dare to touch it..

Cause very pain...

My head de pain is getting worst le..

I dont know why..

Maybe think too much le..

Many things to think..

And,.

Need to done it...

Have been sick le..

Very suffer..

Maybe four day no sleep le ba...

Is ok la...

New look ♥

My new look.. ♥

Bought a new glass.. ^^

Look nice when i wear glasses?!

For me still ok la..

HEHE..

Wear it for fun..^^

Want to try a new life..!

I already try my best to stop thinking it..

But still cant..

I will try my best to do it..

I know many of you scare i having problem..

And do stupid things..

Ya..,

I think before..

But now..,

My mind just want do a things for someone..

That what he have told me before..

That is him also..!

I will say what he have say before..

But i will do something is hurt myself but not him anymore..

I really miss him a lot..

While...

His voice too..!

♥♥♥♥♥

This Few day Feeling

This few day de mood is like this picture..

Damn no mood..

Do anything also not by heart at all..

Try to do best in everything but cant too..

I keep on thinking what he have told me..,

I really very pain and i can feel it le..,

What you have tell me,..

I will remember forever..!

I wont be forget anymore..!

I hope my heart will recover soon...

AND..

Me and him can be together back..!

Without him,

I wont have today..

Because of his support i can get a good result in my mid team exam..

Hope i can be smile back soon..!

Thanks my friends have give me a lot of support..

I will appreciate it..!

16-06-2011

Today the day..

Make me feel ok..

Cause before today reach..

My body start pain and head started again pain..

Cant sleep at all..

72 hours look at the wall for nothing..

No mood to do my homework..

And now.,,

Have leave so much..

I will try my best to do it well..

As soon as i can..

Amy, anything happen..

You also must study for your SPM!!

This is my last information for myself..

I have cried T_T

Today..,

At school.,

I damnly moody..

Because i keep on thinking the things that he have told me..,

Make me very suffer and heart very pain..

I keep on want you to forgive me only..

But you cant..

Finally today afternoon you reply my message..

You keep on ask me to think about 2 weeks only give you the answer..

Why you can't believe the answer is same after 2 weeks..

I just want a last chance only also cant?

What is the meaning?

I very sure, you did not know how suffer i am..,

Almost a day i cry more than 5 times..

I did not sleep for 2 days..

And i just eat once in a day...

I did not want this happen in my life..

I know one day,

I will faint or in hospital because of this problem..

This 2 days, what i eat i vomit back..,

I did not feel like eating anymore..

I did not eat,

My stomach will start pain..

Maybe comes gastric...

Can i end up my life ma?

I really very tired le?

I think before to jump down from a building..,

Or..

Give a car bang..

Is more easy way..

Try to plan happen in this few days..

I want him to regret..,

After i die..

I did anything is for him..!

Moody day ♥

Damnly moody for today..

Cause keep on think want to tam fan my hubby..

I have make him angry and disappointed on me...

I keep on sms him,

He also dont want to reply me..

This time really is my wrong..

Because midnight talking phone with boys..

I know your feeling..

Hubby..

I so miss you a..!

I say real de.,

You are the one in my heart only..!

Hubby..

The answer you want is the same as what i give you on yesterday..

I so worry you..

Can you reply me ma?

Hubby...

Today is a valentine day..,

But i am alone..

Sorry hubby..

Hurt you so deeply..

Hubby..

Love you so much..

Now cant sleep at all..!

Keep on worry you..!

13-06-2011 ♥

Today wake up on 4 am..

Then start continue my drawing..

Go school with full of mood..

But get in to class...,

Need help teacher to do this and that...

The hole day.,

Just help teacher to walk here and there..

Then.,

I hear a bad news...><

Weng sin dad have pass away..

I hope she will be fine..

Take care...

Have a nice day with him ♥

Yesterday have a nice day with him...

We go out with ah gor and ah jie..

Then we went for fishing..

At Sg Buloh.

It is so boring...

Is ok..

Because stay beside hubby..

He did not catch any fish..

Is ok for me..

Ah gor catch dao 4 ikan hantu... ==

Then we went for dinner.,

At Menjala, Kepong..

We eat Yong Tao Fu..

Ah gor sot le..

He order 40 pieces..

Eat until very full...

Backed house..

Then go bath and rest le..

Cause went out hole day very tired..

After bath.,

Start to draw out my idea of my art...

Then sleep at 12 something.. ><

12-06-2011 ♥

A new day for us..

We start over our love from today start..

Before de things..

We must forget about it..

From today start all is new..

Hope everything is be fine..

Love you so much hubby ♥

Yesterday ♥

I cant contact him for the hole day..

So worry about him..

When 7pm.,

He called me..

He asked me,

Why called him so many times..?

I was so worry about him..

He straight tell me a things..

You no need to worry me and care me anymore..

Many things happen after he say this..

On that time,

I was at pasar malam..

I almost cry out..

Then i walk away to the playground..

And started to drop my tears..><

I was very heart pain..

What he say to me..!

I was very tired..

But need to act nothing happen at all.,

In front so many people and mum..

He say..

After he put down the call,

We will start over again..

Wont be say all the past things..

Hope we really can be fine after this ♥

Our Love ♥

Yesterday..

I backed from times square..

We start argue until the night of 9pm..

I have cry for 3 -4 hours..

It is very tired..

The first things we argue is about..:

He angry me that i go watch movie..

Because i still unfeeling well..

Ya..

I really got feeling well..

Why cant i go relax?

I have my own reason..

And you did not want to listen..

The second things :

He say that i have been change heart..><

I did not at all..

You think want to put down a person is so easy?

No..!

Want to love a person is easy...!

But...

For me...

Is not..!

You think back..

Why you want to chase me for 1 month?

You think it properly..

The third things :

I have been change..

I did not at all..!

I change to follow you up..

Also got wrong?

You will starting busy in your work..

And me will..

Starting to study hard..

Do you know my stress?

I trying to change my thinking..

But..

At last also cant..

You just will say me change..

I change myself for you!!!!

The four things :

I also have feel you have another girl..

Why i feel that?

Because..

Last time,

I want to see your facebook..

You wont say no..

But now..

You say you need privacy..

OK..!

I give you have own privacy...

Then what was happen?

You treat me so cool..

DO anything did not care my feeling..

What is all this?

You tell me la..!!!

The fifth things :

We go out with friends and sms with friends..

I did not go out with friends..

If i want go out with them.,

I will..

But..

I did not..

I respect you..

I know you dislike i together with them..

I have try to do it..

Sms with friends..

Ya.

I have,.

You did not have time talk to me and sms with me..

Why cant i reply people message that sms me..?

ALL is just my kai sai lou, kai mui and kai gor..

Got any problem?

I did not know what you are thinking?

The six things :

I say we better change our sim card together..

What you say?

I dont feel like have any good reason that i need to change..

OK..

Ya..

Why i want to change?

Cause we dont trust together..

We change number and just give that the person that we know each other..

IS fair!!

But..

YOu did not want!!

The seven things :

We did not trust each other anymore..

Why?

What causes?

For me..,

I also dont know why..

For you..?

I did not know your answer at all...!

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At last..

He called me.,

And say want break up with me!!!

Why you want treat me like that?

I just want to know..

Your heart still have me?

If you do like that,

You will be happy?

The things that i gave to him..

He say he will give back me..

And..

We dont be contact until i finish my spm..

I begged him..

Dont break up..

We ask me to choose..

1. break up..

2. we still together...

For anyone..

Who also will choose number 2.

Why he still ask?

He ask anything..

I also will say..

My heart just have you..

If you think i change heart..

Why should i so care you..

And i want our love be continue..?

You should know my answer...

I asked him.,

You remember our promises?

Ya..,

He just remember 2..

So..

That means..,

you still remember..

Why you want to do it?

All the time,

we argue..

You are the one to say break and end up..

Why cant we dont say anything..

Lets cool down..

You know about it..

What i say..

All is rubbish..

Cause you dont trusted me..!

Sorry..

If we still together..

You keep on think all the before things..

I will tell you,..

You will say thousand million time that you want break with me..

You know my meaning..

NOw...

I cant find you and contact you..

I say real..

A few hours more.,

I cant find you..

I wont be stay at this world anymore..

You will have the pain for forever..!

Cut hair ♥

Yesterday went to cut my infront hair only..

This is the look..

Ugly ?

Just cut abit..

Cause RM10...

Is so expensive..

Before i cut RM5 only..

No choice..

The shop did not open..

I went to another shop..

She cut until quite nice..

Is ok...

10-06-2011 ♥

Yesterday went to times square with brother..

We two people only..

Cause..

Brother want to hang out no one accompany him.

Then i accompany him..

Yesterday saw damn many people..

But..

All i dislike to see...

We went for a movie..

That is..

"DYLAN DOG ; DEAD OF NIGHT"

The movie quick interesting..

Is fun on sometimes and..

Was scary for sometimes..

Back house on 4pm..

Cause brother got tuition on 5.30pm..

Backed house..

Went for cut hair..

Backed house..

We have start argue again..><

Tell you all the story on other post...

Scary Moment ♥

Today suddenly..

Everything have been blur in front of my eyes..

I sitting at mum store..

Suddenly..

Feel cant see anythings..

I scare i faint again..

I dont dare to faint in front of them..

Any pain that i have..,

I just keep my mouth shut..

What for need them to worry me..?

I tell hubby..,

But he did not care..

What kind of people is this?

When he is sick or any pain..!

I worry like hell..><

But i told him..

Any respond also dont have..

I very disappointed...

Haiz..

I wont say out in my life..

I will keep it as my secret..

Cause i say out le also is useless..

He wont be care..

And just will say you go see doctor la..

That is what he want..

But me want de is..

He come see me..

But he wont..><

The First Time ♥

The first time he say sorry to me..

He did not do wrong he wont say sorry to me de..

But..

Today he did it..

I was so surprise..

After he say it..

He ask me to stop angry him..

And he say he love me so much..

He say he cant live without me le..

But i dont believe.

Always i do anything that he want..

He will do all his staff..

And start dont be care me anymore..

All his things is more important than me..

IN his heart..,

I always be the second..

Why?!

I cant be the first want?

I really dont know why we getting badly..

Nowadays,..

The relationship we have already far..><

My heart ♥

Now my heart is very pain..

And..

I very worry about you..

Today you skipped your work..

Because you unfeeling well..

I sms you and call you also did not want to reply me at all..

I really scare you faint again..

You always faint sure have big problem..

I worry that you got anything happen..,

No one is there to help you..

And i cant be at your side..

Every time you pain or you need me,

I also cant be there for you..

I am useless right?

I also feel that..

Can't do anything for you..!

I want to try my best to take care you...!

But at last..

I did not do it ><

Tired ♥

One night no sleep..

Really very tired..

And very sam fu..

I did not sleep..

Because we have argue again..><

I really gives up in argue that we have..

I very very tired le..

And every time.. I am the one is the loser..

Cause I will be cry first..><

Cause i really heart pain..

The pain that i have,

He also get it..

I very sorry..

I am the always make the problem out..

And say something badly to you..

Not enough sleep..

The head is the most pain place for me..

Feel like die-ing..><

Really ?!

What he say now,

is real?

He say he cant lose me..

But why he still cant say something is hurt me..?

I did not know what is he thinking right now?

Can i know more about you?

Most de time, you have gives on your work..

Can you give me some time to know you more?

I just want a normal life..

Stop make your life suffer again..><

Can?

You did not know my thinking at all..

NO need you say..

I also know...

However..,

I already have no comment in our love anymore..><

111 days ♥

Not happy at all..

I have drop my tear on the sharp of 12 o'clock..

I asked him.,

Why your facebook, the picture of us have been gone?

He say did not play de facebook for so long le..

But he lie me..
Most the time,

Is he play..

But he blame to his brother..

In his facebook sure have many privacy that is chatting with girl..

This is not the first time..

I realize..

I very sad..

Cause he did not want tell me the true..!

I very hate people lie me..

But he did it to me...

I have no choice..

Who ask me to love him..

I wont be hate him..

But i just will heart pain..

Every time,

When i have cry..

I totally did not sleep at all..

Every part of my body cant be move..

And my headache will getting worse..

Well..

I also dont mind to have this type of sick..

I also did not see doctor..

I know what is my problem,.

And you also worry about it..

But..

You still want make me cry..

I also have nothing to say..

Today is 111 days.. ♥

We have been together..

You did not know at all..

You still can asked me..!

Why don't you told me early?!

I was very heart pain once again..

The important day..

You have been forget anymore..

I wont be telling you anything..

I hope you will remember what we have...><

The painful day that i have in my life ><

I feel ♥

I feel want to check what he have chat with people in facebook..

But i did not do it..

Maybe what he say is correct..

Between two of us..

We still need some private things..

I feel like he got something is hiding to me..

I dont know why i feel that..

If really got,

I wont forgive him..

Cause he do something is unfair to me..

Our chat ♥

We already getting less and less to chat le..

I did not know why..

Maybe..

Did not have any idea..

Maybe all the topic have been say before..

Haiz..

What whatever ba...

I already have no more idea..

Talk to you..

YOu also just reply me one or two word..

You like la..

I say much.,

You will dislike..

I better keep my mouth shut...

You do what you want ba..

I have no comment anymore..

Just Create ♥

I just create a new page for my love.. ♥

Everyone please support it...

Can?

I need you all to support about it..!

Just help me to like it the page only..

Anywhere waiting you guys to support me..

I would like to say thanks first..

The Link is :

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Amy_Pei-Ying-Vince-Zaii/128519587227651

♥♥♥♥♥

My blog ♥

This blog will be write about my life and my love..

I wont be separate it anymore..

Cause i hard to let him know about my feeling..

Beside that..,

I really hope what he done now,

Is for our future..

Hubby...,

I love you ♥

Missing you ♥

I keep on missing you all the time..

I cant sleep well,

I cant do anything with a full heart..

I just want to look at you..,

And stay you at my side..

Every night i sleep..

I dream for our future..

I believe one day will happen in our life..!

Every dream i have collect now,

I wont never never forget it..!

I can feel the love that we have now getting deep..

How you treat me,

How you talk to me,

How you trust me,

How you listen to me,

I also wont be care anymore..

I just can say..

I love you more right now..

How we argue or quarrel..,

I also never gives up in anytime..

The love that you give me.,

Make me feel very xin fu..

I know you is the right one for me..!

I will wait you to marry with me..

However..,

No one trust "FOREVER"

But i believe..

Our love is for forever..!

05-06-2011

I have say a lie to my parents..

I say i hang out with my friends..

But i am not..

I alone sit lrt and ktm go find hubby..

Cause too miss him le..

10 something in the morning..

Asked dad fetch me to sri petaling de lrt..

Then i alone sit lrt go to bandar tasik selatan de station..

Reach there..

Go change to ktm..

Ktm almost wait for 30 minutes..

Damn many people..

After that..

Ktm come..,

I did not care got how much people.,

I just crab in..

Then so many non malaysian..

It is so smelly..

Cause is all those smoker smell..

Then..

Reach at segambut station is about 11 something..

Then sit taxi go find hubby at taman pusat kepong..

Reach there..

Go buy chicken rice at hubby house there..

Then go up hubby house..

The hole day..

We watch movie..

Then 3 something..

Went to cc..

cause too boring le..

Until 5 something..

We go back to his house.,

To wait his friend back from work..

To fetch me back house..

After that.,

We went for dinner together..

At old town at kuchai lama..

Back house on 9 something..

Hubby backed house..,

Call me,.

Suddenly,

My muii (amanda)

Tell me..

She think she will die..

Cause eat le, 4 type of medicine..

LOL...

Then she called me for chat..

Then i join call with hubby..

After that..

Hubby have go for meeting..

Then i have a nice sleep..

I have dream for so many things

So Long Did Not Update My Blog

So long did not have update my blog le..

Cause house internet have been cut down..

But now..

Already make back..

I was very happy..

Cause can be online back..

This is the new month..

So fast already went for half year le..

My exam left 4 months plus only..

It is too fast le..

I keep on saying that want to keep on back up my studying..

but i did not..

haiz..

cause very lazy to open book..

Other than that..

About my love..

We always argue and did not chat well..

Make us will say the word..

I did not do it..

How he treat me

I also did not mind..

I just want he stay beside me..

And in his heart just have me...><