Saturday is coming!!!

The day is coming..

Still have feel hours..

Good..

I can go hang out with my belover lao po...

At times square..

Hope we will have good day...

Waiting about it!!!

MUACKSSS!!!

Hubby forgived me..!

Yesterday..,

Hubby have forgive me..,

I was very tired on the time..

But..

I still called hubby and cry for half an hour..

Nowadays,

He got abit things also will start want to ague and scolded me..

Is ok for me..

I very happy that he talk with me..

I really hope.,

We wont be argue anymore..

Hope have a nice day with him on sunday..

28-07-2011

The day look so scary..

but is fun too..

My class teacher.,

Come in to my class.,

Asked us to do exercise..,

While..

To relax our hole body..

After that..,

We go walk around the school..

Finish walking..

We sit at dewan bacaan..

To have some games..

Like..:

congkak, guli, and many more..

Everyone feel so relax..

Included our class teacher..

Kill myself..!

I will start..

Less sleep,

Less eat,

Less do my staff,

Less drink,

Less to drop my tears..,

while,

I will important..

More my study,

More my revision,

More suffer,

More pain,

More regret

in my life..

I will make myself dead soon..

Cause dead can settle everything in my life..

I will do it for myself..

My feeling?

Did anyone know my feeling?

I was very very sad when i have be scolded on friday..

I always be the victim of you all..

Why cant you all be my victim once?

I really very sam fu to stand in front of you all..

Stand in front of you all.,

I just feel like upset while i want cry too..

Did anyone know my feeling?

I really cant sleep well..

Many dream i have get..

Why this will happen in my life?

I just want belove listen to my feeling only..

But..

He also cant do it for me..

While..,

I get scolded from you yesterday..

Thanks you alot..

You did not help me,

While you scolded me alot...

THis is the way you help me..,

I suffer for 6 days..,

No one care about me..

I cant smile at all..

why?

I force myself to smile..

Also cant...

And..

He also never care me..

This is a way a bf treat the gf?

I did not sleep more than 4 hours..

I did not eat much than 1 time..

When i am pain., I did not take once of the medicine..

Cause..,

I really hope..,

I will fall down in this time..,

And wont be wake up for forever...

I want do something to hurt myself so much..,

But the time, haven't be reach...

I need to plan for so many things..

And i really hard to control myself..

Sorry here..

If i really want to do something is stupid in my life..

I did not appreciate what my god have given me..

Thanks so much god..

You help me alot..

And so sorry to my parents, family while my belove..

I will be going living you all soon..

Sorry so much...

I very suffer...

I very tired in everything le..

Can i just gives up my life?

I really want fall down once before i lose everything..

I really starting to lose my things..

While..,

I also very sam fu..

Did anyone will care about me?

The answer is no..

Why can't i faster end up my life?

WHY?

Live at here.,

just keep on having problem..

I really very suffer on it le...

Sport days ♥

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

Our school sport days have finished on yesterday ♥

Happy..

I very enjoy with all my friends ♥

We scream here and there, just like a crazy people..

Teacher also lazy to care us ♥

The sport end on 3pm..

Damn long oh...

And tired...

Lastly...

The winner is BLUE HOUSE...! ♥

The Point is 1010 ♥

22-07-2011

Today,..

Suddenly..

We get stay back..

Cause teacher borrow subject pen. sivik..

After that..,

We did not bring beg folio..

Then we went to studio..

Then we get scold because did not bring and bring back house..

We forced to stay back..

All of us stay until 5pm..

Cause..

This happen..

Suddenly..,

Elise mum..,

Come fetch her back..

Then she tell teacher that she wait for 3 hours ..

Why my daughter done her work.,

She cant go back.

Then teacher asked..,

You have finish meh?

Then she say ya..

Ok lor..

Teacher let her back de..

Suddenly..,

Her mum at the door say..,

BUANG MASA SAJE!!!

Then teacher's husband hear that..

And feel so angry..

Then talked with marcus..

But suddenly..,

Marcus called me..

Then i putih putih kena diu..

I drop my tears cause..

He say he will fail all our subject..

In the time,

My mind was..

Not my problem..,

Why you want fail me?

I just a monitor..

I just do my job properly..

And I always get scold from teacher..

I very hate this happen..

After that.,

Her husband damn bu shuang..,

Then keep on see me not in the proper way..

At last..,

I drop alot of my tears..

Because of this class..

He wanted ELISE..,

To say sorry to teacher..

If not.,

He will take arc section on it..

I did not know how to talk with ELISE..

I will ask Marcus to say it..

21-07-2011

We have changes our place today..

Cause the stupid PUAN FAUZIAH wanted girls to sit near the window..

While.. All the boys can sit at the middle of the class..

Teacher did not know..,

Them really blocking our way..

I very hard them...

Changes the places.,

Them will sit talking alot..

Hate them..

And i separated with my belover lao po..

And sit with someone that i dislike..

I very hate her so much de..,

But no voice..

Hope so!

I hope what hubby tell me today..,

Will be happen in one day..

Lucky..,

He have awake from what he have make mistake..

Human need to learn from mistake..

Mistake can make a person wake up..

Hubby..

I will always stay beside you..

Dont worry..

Take care..

Love you so much..

Muackksssss

Happy Five Month Anniversary ♥

Today is me and him de anniversary..

In midnight..

2.30am..

We have argue..

Lastly..,

I am wrong..

Cause let you feel me outside got other one..

Sorry so much!!!

About 2 hour plus only we be recover back..

I like the feel that you given me today..

Maybe after my birthday..,

I cant meet you up always le..

I will very miss you on the time..

Can i will study hard for my spm..!

Left 117 days more..

Is very scary for me to look at it..

I really very scare cant get good result..

Make my parents disappointed on me..

While..,

Hubby, will not support me anymore..

Hope hubby..

Will always stay beside me..

I want say once more time..

HAPPY 5 MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY BELOVER HUBBY..! ♥

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR THINGS..

GOOD LUCK...

I WILL BE SUPPORT YOU ALL THE TIME..

TAKE CARE..

LOVE YOU BADLY..! ♥

MISS YOU IN EVERY SECOND IN MY LIFE!!! ♥

Need to study hard..

I leave not much time only..

Ah...

SO stress..

Everyday study until 12 something on can went for sleep..

If really cant tahan le,

I will sleep early...

I hope can get a good result in trial and my SPM!!!

I did not want make anyone disappointed!!!

Lucky..!

Now...,

Hubby is facing to his problem..

Is good..

I love it...

Cause he really do something in his life..

I wish him all the best..

Good luck hubby!!

Take care!!

LOve you!!

Hubby..!

Hubby..!
Can you face to the problem you have now..?

Dont try to tao bi the problem..!

Can ma?

I really worry you.,

I scare one day..,

You will just living me at here.,

And you going to other place.,

Without telling me,

Actually..,

I did not want to let you time to think it..,

But really..,

Hubby..,

If the things that cant be do.., why dont you stop it..

Just return back to your single life..,

I very hard only so love a person..

You are the one make me so love you,

But you did not HARGAI!!!

Why?

I cry all the time,

Cause i really very worry you ah!!

Why cant you listen what i say?

If i let you go?

You will find me back when you recover?

Or..

You will go back to your ex gf there?

I really hope you can stay with me for forever..,

You say you will marry with me.,

I believe you will,

I know you wont lie me..!

Cause i trusted you all the time..!

I really hope you can Face to the problem you have..

I know i cant be at your side all the time,,

Especially..,

When you needed me..!

When you want hug me..!
When you want me to give you a good suggestion!

I also wait for the time to goes fast!

Cause i want to stay with you..,

You make my life wonderful..

Then i will do what you want from me..!

I will try my best to be a good girl-friend..

I wont be argue with you anymore..,

And just listen what you say..,

AND...

SORRY!!!

Yesterday make you drop your tear..,

Because of your problem..!

Hate my classmates!!

I very hate them..,!

Them did not respect teacher at all..

Make people want study also cant!

Them think them on in the class?

Did not think about teacher feeling?

Just want to hurt teacher all the time..,

I very pity to all the teachers that teach our class..

Because of a big group of MANGKUK!

Then make teachers cant teach those people want study!

I did not how to say about them already!!!

Thanks for her suggestion

I don't know how to tell you but when I was at around your age, I met this kind of guy before. Whatever he did.. was just like what your boyfriend did, except that your boyfriend he was worse, because he adds all kinds of girls in his Facebook and control you too much.. I really don't know how to tell you this. I was with the guy for 8 months and I gave him my "body". I hope you didn't.. I really hope you didn't, you will regret one day. I remember once there was a person who also told me what happened to her, but I didn't listen at all. In the end, now after 4 years I finally understand why. You're still young, don't let him affect you. I know what you're thinking and I used to think like you. Don't cry anymore for this kind of guy. It's time to let go. I know it's hard for you to suddenly accept a stranger's words but seriously when I saw your blog I cried because I thought of my past, how silly I was. I wiped my tears away and decided I should let you know before it's too late. You can treat me as a stranger and probably just lying to you but at least please just think. Do you really think this guy is honest to you? Did he ever borrow money from you? Did he use your phone and said his phone spoiled? And then he changed his phone to yours? Then he lied to you that he has this sickness and that sickness and all that? Then when he cannot answer your phone or reply you back is because he fainted or something? Please if this happened to you, you have to act fast and let this guy go. I used to think I loved my ex too, but it wasn't like that. Girl, I know how you feel, you feel like if you lose him you have nothing left. It's because you are dependent to him. I hate to say this but I think you have given him your body? Cause only a girl who had given another guy their body will be this upset and angry. I really wish I can see you in real life and tell you properly what happened to me.. I finally found the girl I truly love after that guy. It's nothing like that guy. Girl, if you don't act fast you will regret more in future. It pains me in the heart till today. Even when I'm typing this I'm still crying because I am so hurt. The past cannot be erased and nothing can undo that. Now I feel so sorry for my current boyfriend because I had already given my body to another guy. I'm with my current boyfriend for 3 years and 2 months already. You can take this as a lie or whatever but I really wanna let you know, think properly, let go now is better than later. I know that you're a good girl who wants to study so please do not let it affect you..

Elise!

Elise..,

Can you stop saying all those bullshit things and saying lies..,!

You think you argue with people, you will win?

Now you got the final?

You are THE LOSER!

Why?

Cause you did not have any power at all!

You think you very good in everything?

You blame on people that you join QM then you get bad result..

If you did not join the QM, I also did not think your result will be good?

Let's see your Mid-year exam..,

You think the result is well?

Your mum happy you get it?

Your mum smile on you, not means she want you to get the result..

She want you get better than that!!

At class.,

You asking so many people to support you,

But do you think you have wrong anot!!

I also did not want the problem anymore..!

You say want study at class..

But..,

Now you keep on mention want go out from the class..!

You may go it!

No one cares!

And you..

You want be people model for competition.,

Can you look properly at your face?

Izzit suitable?

For me, NO!!

Cause you are worst than SOOK MUN!!

And last thing,

I want say about you!!

You are VIRGIN?

excuse me..!

What you asked me before what is that?

The way you walk already different la..!

You want to lie people.,

Better dont lie to yourself, your parents and your god la!!!

IF you are VIRGIN,

Then one month, you do for once what is that?

Just touch and touch?

Or

See and see?

Use your brain before you say anything!!

USELESS GIRL!!!

Going to break..!

Me and him going to end soon..

Why i say that?

Cause he did not take me as his girl friend anymore..,

He anything also keep away from me..,

I did not know why he do that?

But.,

I already feel he outside got another girl...

I did not know what i should do now?

I really want to gives up?

He really just want to play a full with me?

Or..

He just want to make love with me only?

I did not know..

I was very bur right now..,

I very hate myself...

Why so love him this time?

I always take a relationship is a play..

But i am serious this time.,

Hate it so much..

Maybe i have do wrong things...

Haiz..

Dont know how to say about my relationship le..

If he want let go..,

I will just let go..!

She have change alot!!

She totally have change alot..

The way she talk damn LC...

And did not care about people feeling at all le..,

In her life,

She just need her bf only..

Other,

She can leave out..

OK..!

She totally can't leave without her BF!!!

I dislike talk to her anymore..!

Dislike them!!

I dislike talk to them..,

I did not know why..

Maybe too LC ba..

The way them talk did not respect us at all..

What for i need to talk with people that did not respect people..

Useless..!

Hate them deeply too!!

I hates her!!

She make me most hate her in my class..

I dislike talk to her.

But she like to let me zat her..

Stupid girl in the world..

You think you very good a?

I dont think so lor..

Always want to copy people style..,

You look at your body shape la?

Can meh?

Use your brain?

You wont be pretty lor..

I say serious le...!

Useless girl in my mind..

My new number...

The new number i have now.,

Just given to few person only..

That is :

1. MUM
2. DAD
   
3. BRO
4. HUBBY
5. SOOKPING
6. SHY YUN
7. KAI MA

Other i did not give too,

cause i did not want to contact with you all anymore.,

Sorry!!!

Forcing myself..!

Ya..,

I am forcing to smile more with you all..

And be crazy all the time.,

WHY?

Cause i did not want to show you all the moody face..

I know my moody face will make people scare of me.,

And don't dare to talk with me..

Ermm..

I know damn many people hate me le..,

Cause i talk with them..,

Very rude and did not respect them..

Cause in my life i did not needs you all at all..!!

That why.,

I make you all far from me..

Sorry!!!

Hate it!!

Damn unlucky for me today..

Come period today..

Hate it so much,

Why i am a girl?

Why must girl come all this things?

Why girl must waste money?

Girl..,

Got so many question of why!!!

Hope them will talk back..!

I hope them will recover soon..

Them have been argue for a small things..

I know..,

Them will be good back soon..

Just let tracy to fresh her mind first ba..

S.Ying, dont worry la..^^

Thanks mum..!

I very thanks mum..

Cause she wait me to done my project only she went for sleep..

I really so stress on the time,

Cause need faster done it..,

Let mum go sleep first..

Haiz..

Sorry mum..

Make you so tired..

Thanks mum..!

I very thanks mum..

Cause she wait me to done my project only she went for sleep..

I really so stress on the time,

Cause need faster done it..,

Let mum go sleep first..

Haiz..

Sorry mum..

Make you so tired..

Sorry to you two..!

Sorry.. baby and hubby!

I make you all so angry me..

And disappointed on me..

I already dont know what should i do le..,

The things i can do is to say sorry to you all..><

07-07-2011

Today is the worst day for me..,

Cause i argued with my best friends and she is my belover baby..

Haiz..

She asked me,

Why look so moody in my facebook?

Then i told her all my problem and i have to have to face too de things..><

She give me some many suggestion but at last.,

I did not care her.,

I say something is so hurt her..,

Sorry baby..

While.,

She also very hates me right now..!

I cried hardly on the time.,

Cause i make a friends hate me so much..

I did not know how to face on her anymore..

Sorry..!

After argue with baby,..

I scolded my hubby..!

Sorry hubby...

I did not have heart to scold you de..

I have lose control on the time,

I did not know what i am doing in this few day..

I think of so many things..

And i am so stress about it..!

I hate it!!!

FUCK!!!

Smile?

I force myself to smile hardly..,

But cant...

Smile also forced to make people around me,

Don't worry me only..

Actually..,

When i facing with my phone and laptop..

Sorry..

I can tell you..,

I did not smile at all..

Cause i always think back,

What i have see,

How you lied me..

Why?

This will happen?

As people say..

We is come from this world?

You don't trust me?

Give one example..

When we meet up..

You sure will take my phone to check up..

I did not do this for so long le..

Ya..,

Sometimes i really want to do it..,

Cause i want see you called who and sms with who..

But..

Most of it.,

Is your house mates and your friends that i know..

Ok..!
But me..

I have message from facebook.,

Then you asked who is that..,

How can i answer you..

I did not look at their picture also..

While..,

You will reply them all the bad things..

I got say anything?

NO.. RIGHT!!!

You always don't trust me..

I have change my number because of you..

And i just given to 10 people in my life..

Other..

I did not mention that i change number at all..

Hope you really think back..,

We should be continue anot..?

Cause you make me feel..

You did not have the feel with me anymore..

Sorry...

I already did not know what should i do le..

I have think it for so many times..,

Why you go cc also cant let me know?

You lie me, that you go office for meeting and all other reason..

What for you lie me for?

Izzit you outside have another girl?

Your house mates try to tell something about you to me.,

But you ask them dont say..

I not so stupid can be lie from you..

I know something is badly..,

I did not want argue with you..

Cause i know.,

If we argue.,

We will break up on this time..

I really cant stand it anymore..

I choosen give you freedom..

The freedom that you have now..,

Is for you to playing around and not serious for everything..

If i want the things you can't did it for me by today or tomorrow..

I really sorry..

What you promise, Totally is rubbish for me..

I not going to help you anymore..

How much you love me.,

How much you told me,

I also wont be believed anymore...

Sorry!.

I say something that is hurt you while i am hurting myself too..

As long you happy ♥

I know you are lying me at the time..,

As long you happy,.

Then you do it la..

I also lazy to care it le..,

Care more will make me heart break and the pain become more serious..

I already trying to give you freedom..

You think you lie me,

Is the best way..

OK ba,.

You may do it..

I did not hope have anything..

Cause i also know what is my problem..

Your friends is trying to tell me the true..,

But..

You trying to tell me anything..

I am fine de...

As long you happy..

The way i can say only..

You did not love me or dislike me le..

I also nothing..

You want continue to play more..

You play ba..

I already no energy to care all this..

And i did not have any enough time anymore..

Sorry..

Monday [04-07-2011] ♥

I skipped school today..

I damnly tired and cant wake up at all..

My head pain like hell..

Lucky..,

My dad did not wake me up..

When i stand up, look at the light..

I feel like faint..

Cause..

Everything is blur infront my eyes...

Sleep until 10am only wake up..

My mum asked me,

Why you did not go school?

I say my head very pain..

Them started to ngam me again..><

You think my head to pain de meh?

I better rest at house than pain at school..

This is the last time,

I will stay at house if i got pain..

Cause did not want let them to say many things anymore..

Sorry..

I cant let you all know what i was happen le.

I will make the check up after my trial exam..

Cause i need to wait my hubby make the operation first..

I did not want 2 of us get trouble in the same time..

I hope he will get well soon..

And me..

Hope can stand another 3 months more..

That is enough for me..

Sunday ♥

Damnly angry in the early of the morning..

Cause hubby,

Sent me a message, ask me dont go find him..

But..

He will find me..,

At last..

He did not..

I go find him finally..

Cause i have cook something to let him eat..

2 something.,

His friends, come back from work..

And say..

AH HAO, you so xin fu oh..!

LOL!!!

Because i cook for him ><

Then rest at his house.,

Cause i am tired..

Sleep for 2 hours plus..

Then wake up..

Chit chat awhile..

Then hubby them fetch me back..

Before back house,

Hubby go eat with me at food court..

Suddenly,.

My hole body did not have energy le..,

I did not let hubby know..

Cause did not want him to worry me..

Backed house.,

Sms with him awhile..

Then cant sleep at all..><

After that..,

Waited him to call me.

He told me so many things..

The special things is..

He say TQ to me..

Because i cook for him..

He almost 1 year did not eat house rice le..

He told me that..

I was like ok la.., you want it..

I will do it for you..

As long you happy then can le..

My phone ♥

My satio and W705..

Not with me now..,

I have give to my hubby to use it..

Satio, he need for taking picture..

And..

My W705, have spoil..

He take for repair..

I now using hubby phone that is W980...

Quick nice de phone also..

For me,

Anything is ok.

New Picture ♥

Report card day ♥

My result..

Mid-year exam..

I fail 2 subject only..

I get number 2 in class.

My dad was so happy on it..

I also so happy on it..

Hope i can get good result in SPM! ♥

Support for me ♥

Thanks to my class teacher..

She leave this note for me..

She hope i can do well in my spm..

I also hope so..

I will study hard to in my study..

Cause i need do some prove things for my family...

Anyways..

I also need my hubby to support in all the time ♥

Maybe is happiness

On wednesday (27-06-2011)

The day that make me painful so much..

The day..,

I so suffer..

Cause my head damn pain..

Make me cry a lot of time..,

After that..,

Suddenly.,

Hubby say come find me..

I was so happy on the time..,

Backed house then go ready to meet him up..

Cause about 1 week plus we did not chat well and meet up le..

After meet up him.,

His friends say so many funny things to make us laugh..

His friends is cute and funny..

Went to his house.,

Then we two have a talk on the time.,

Suddenly,

My tear drop..,

I say all my heart word to me him..

Cause that really make me so suffer on the day that i did not chat too with you..

He asked me to stop it.

But i did not listen on him..

Sorry..

I cant control myself..

I make him drop his tears too..

He say so many times sorry to me..

And he say wont treat me like that anymore..

I hope so,..

At night..,

8 something he wanted to fetch me back house.,

But suddenly.,

Ah gor called him to watch movie..

Then go watch movie..

But i feel ah gor is like bu shuang me..

For me is ok..

" once you show me the face that is i did not want to see., means next time i wont be going out with you all only "

9 something backed house..

Then rest..!