30-01-2011, Rainy Day

Today wake up on 7 something.. Cause too cold.. Then go open computer to play and wait my brother buy things for me to eat.. Finish eat le, eat medicine,.. Continue play computer until 1 something... My mum come and say eat le medicine no need to sleep a??! Then i was blah blah blah... while i playing computer.. Then i put up my nail polish^^ The colour is pink with all the blind things^^ After done, go bath awhile then go take my sweet sweet picture.. This time no make up^^ 1.20pm went to sleep.. Then wake up on 4 something.. Still so cold.. I stick with my 2 blanket..^^ Feel hungry, then go eat dinner..^^ after eat dinner need to eat medicine again ==.. almost all the time is eating medicine only.. haiz..><

Bad thinking

This few night..

Cant sleep well...

Keep on thinking all that bad things..

I hope it wont happen on me...

All the nightmare was so scary...

I hate it><

29-01-2011

Today wake up on 8am..

Then went to check up on 8.30am

Need to wait about 1 hour plus..

Then go eat breakfast..

The mee did not have any rasa..

Just tam tam..><

Then go back there..

Need go blood test again..

Today not so pain..

Cause not the gila nurse do..^^

Then wait for report about 30 minutes..

Then go in see doctor..

After checking..

Doctor say..

I give you 1 more injection then will recover soon..

And give me 7 big packet of medicine.

Ask me dont eat pork about 1 week...

What de!!

Chinese new year where got anything did not put pork de!

I need to ask them.. only i can eat.><

Cham!!!

25-01-2011

I have break up with every boys that i have together with them..

I am so sorry o...

I hurt you guys...

I really dont know what should to do le...

I did not want them to worry and care me so I just can use this way...

I know i so qi shi..

But no choice..

I did not want to see you all de sad and worry face..

Result

I am so sorry to all those boy that i have hurt...

I know i am bad in this relationship..

I really have waste your time to pui me and spend on me..

I know i am not a best girl in the world..

But I still need to care myself..

I now sicking..

I did not want you all worry me and care me..

I really so sorry..

I every night also have cry because of my discuss that i make by myself..

I so hope you guys will happy always..

And can find a new girl that is better than me..

I am so sorry to kerby low, andrew justin, lee jit how and henly..

I know i say how many time sorry also cant recover you all de heart..

I really hope you all will recover soon and get a new girl..

Thanks alot that you all have love me and like me...

Pain

I have pain from 24-01-2011 to 26-01-2011

I was very pain with my muscles and bone...

This 2 day..

I have cry alot because of my pain..

I really cant tahan anymore le...

I really did not want this feeling a...

Please help me!!!

Fever please go away a...!

Now I left half life only a..

haiz...

PAINING!!!

24-01-2011

Suddenly...

Stomach pain at midnight 4 something..

then go toilet to let it out..

After that...

My brain and eyes was blur..

Suddenly..

I fall at bed...
And sleep..

At the moment..

I so scare that I cant wake up anymore...

Hiaz...

Lucky...

I can wake up on 5 something..

Then my head was start paining...

6.30am..

My head like want to boom out le..

Damn xin ku,.

Then sleep until 10.30am..

MY head more pain and I need help..

But no one help me...

I tahan by myself...

I really xin ku..

I cant tahan anymore le,..

Parents,..

I need you all right now..><

Many thing happen

This few day many thing happen..

My mood have turn badly..

I did not feel happy at all..

I so hope my baby sookping stay beside me...

I so need her..

Just her can make me happy...

The problem:

My brother..

He steel money..

What the fuck!!!

This things have been from last time..

He dare to steel money when my parents very need money...

I also dont know what to say to him..

Sometime feel want kick him out from this house...

Second: my relationship...

This type of relationship just can say it terrible...

Just like shit..

Them did not care my feeling at all..

What for i need to care him!!

I know i did not respect them...

Because them did not take me as their gf also..

What for i need to waste my time..

I need to study did you all know that..

ALways say i am busy..

Ya... I am.. SO what!!!!

YOu all did not like study not means well i must follow you all..

FUCKER!!!!

Third: THis year no cny for my family..

Because of my dad hutang people many money..

Then now did not have enough money to use..

I also tak boleh tahan le..

I feel want run out from this house sometimes...

Backed house think of money..

WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Who can i tell too??

Who would like to listen,..!

No one la..

I am the eldest so...

I force to give out my money..

I know my RM550 have gone..

Never can take back...

FUCK!!!

I work for so hard then now gone...

So hate la..

I did not want last time life anymore...

Can my dad really change his self...

I so hope it...

Quite long

I have quite long did not update my blog..

I have been relationship with kerby, andrew, Zhe how and ah fai...

ON 20/01/2011..

I have break up with henly...

Cause he is too far for me..

And we did not have almost 3 week did not sms and call at all..

He say he damn busy and many reason..

What de fuck..

If i am your gf, you should tell me where you have went..

I also lazy to find him at all..

IS ok la..

For me..

Now de relationship is just a puppy love...

I damn boring in my relationship le..

If got time, chat and sms with them only..

Just let the time to pass...

Did not have time

I did not have time to update my blog..

Sorry to my friends and my reader...

I am quick busy in my study and tired to my health...

I did not take care myself properly...

Then now get 1 type of headache le..

I did not know will recover anot..

But i try my best to study hard in my studies..

And make my future beautiful and wonderful..

I need to rest more..

SO i wont be update my blog o..

SORRY..

Wish you guys happy always, take care and have a nice day..

Feel like...

I feel like crying now,.

I did not know why..

Please let me cry out...

My mood so down a...

haiz...

Faster recover please!!!

Boring

Damn boring..

Keep study and study damn boring..

When i have start to read my sejarah book..

I feel like sleepy..

See half way, I can straight fall as sleep le..

Maybe the book too boring le..

No choice..

I hope myself can pass the sejarah..

GOOD LUCK AMY YAP!!! :)

Edited picture♥

Quite busy

This few day..

I quite busy doing my homework and staff..

I want very stress on my study..

Cause I need to back up all my form 4 study..

I very hope my study will get good result...

My staff is like..

I am a Monitor of class..

So anything teacher will look for me..

Haiz..

Hate it!!

Dislike it!!

Other than that..

I also have sick..

I very easy to get tired and sleepy..

Sometimes backed house..

Feel like sleeping..

Other than that..,

I also have start my tuition...

My tuition always at night..

haiz...

Boy friend??!!

I have together with him about 2 month le...

So what..!!

I just meet him 1 time..

We just a couple by phone..!!

1 day we sms also about 5 message only..

Other the time,

He busy and I study..!

He off day also..

He will went out with his friends..

He wont call me and sms me..!!

I really want break with him..

Me and him just like single..

DID I need to continue it??!

I think no need gua..!!

Waste our time..!!

He keep ask me to meet him..

But he did not think about my time at all!!

haiz...

I need to study please..!!

Sat and sun, you must work and I have the free time...!!

So We better be friends??!!

Friends??!!

Last time,

I have alot of friends..

But now...

Not many friends I have leave..

Maybe of my attitude and them think I have boy friends..

Them have stop contact with me..!!

Sometimes I feel lonely cause nothing can do...

I always sms with boys...

But nowadays..

My phone quite silent...

haiz...

2nd day at school

OH NO!!!!!

Damn boring the first and second day at school....

Teacher talk what, I also feel like sleeping..

Damnly boring...

Then just sit at there talk and talk..

Today teacher have changed our place..

Some of us can change our place...

But some teacher put at the place..

Cham..!!

Teacher want me sit at central..

Cause I am the monitor of the class... ==

Cham!!!

Haiz!!!

Tomorrow start our class will study by normal..!!

We need to bring alot of books..><

What can do??!!xP

We is form 5 so no choice!!!

Tomorrow start school♥

3/1/2011

Is the day to start the school...

I so miss you guys...

Haha...

Have a nice day tomorrow..

Take care^^

I have stop my work..

I have stop my work at 29/12/2010...

The last day, Damn tired and damn full customer...

I did not care much..

Just do it..

And my second job have stop at 1/1/2011..

Damn tired and i not enough sleep...

Haiz..

Cause before the day sleep at 3.30am...