why goes become like that?

The pain getting serious.

I saw something that haven't saw before.

And just can keep my mouth shut.

Don't dare to see doctor.

Just will keep on get scold.

And..

You did not care at all.

I already get very serious pain then need you..

You always just think i am playing a fool with you.

Is ok.

I told myself i will settle my staff myself.

Even..

Don"t have the money to see doctor.

Just wait for die la.

Human also need dead.

Don't know when is the time coming anot.

But for me.

Is getting near.

Try to enjoy my life.

And just helping people that i can.

I just know.

Everything happen will always be alone ..

Now.

Did not have any hope.

And..
College life will be gone soon.

Better it wont be happening.

Just will make them suffer.

Why not..?

I am the one is suffering.