Don't know why

I really don't know what i want now..

Cant forgive myself...

Maybe i think myself is a playgirl...

But i did not...

I don' know why..

Just in last year i have 5 bf...

It is many????

For me not..

Cause i did not love and like them le..

Only i will say break...

But everyone say me listen what people say then make me break...

I did not feel that...

Cause I am not so easy to let anyone to control...

I don't know what I want now!!!!